How to be a faithful and loving wife to Jesus

I know everyone's list is different but I didn't want to waste anymore time dreaming about what type of wife I want to be to my future husband. I'm not in the future, and fortunately :), there is no suitor in sight--at least until God finishes making me into his perfect bride :). So I decided to learn from what the Holy Spirit's been pouring into me lately how to be more faithful to my warrior groom. Understanding this whole intimacy with Jesus has really blown me away lately! I mean I never knew that the desires God has birthed in me to a.) be a place of rest and safety for my husband, b.) a woman of integrity and purity, and c.) initiate intimacy with my husband, were all qualities he wanted me to demonstrate in my relationship with him today! So I wanted to explore the ways God is calling me to love him as his faithful and loving bride to  Jesus. I only have 10, but they've already challenged me to make my home in God:

1.) Not murmur or complain

2.) Be a doer of the word

3.) Initiate intimacy

4.) draw near to God

5.) Be content

6.) Learn obedience

7.)Trust in God's provision

8.) Focus on how to love God through his people and various other commitments

9.) Be peaceable by choosing humility

10.) Take thought in my appearance and be orderly in conduct


I'll describe these qualities more fully in my next blog but I had to write them down!

Be beautifully made whole Queen_______,

Love Queen Surrender <3

Finding Strength after a horrible break-up :(

There are seasons in our life that just simply don't equal up to the amount of work and time you put in to it. One particular season that I'm battling through is the hurt and pain experienced after an unwanted breakup. I truly believed that I had found the one. He had entered into the picture 2 years prior while I was in my senior year of college, and while time wasn't on our side --since I was new to my relationship with God and distance stood in the way--we still managed to develop a strong desire for one another. We decided to end our summer romance before it began, believing God would bring it back if he should desire. 2 years pass and after restraining the desire to reach out to him upon moving back to town after graduation, we remain cool, distant friends for awhile. Last summer, however, changed everything.

We quickly picked up things where they left off as if time hadn't changed either of us. The first three months were amazing . We enjoyed being back in each others life again, and even began discussing marriage much sooner than we should have. My heart belonged completely to this man. I started to make plans for my life that included him in the picture.

The word of our living God says to " Guard your heart, it is the wellspring of life" This is so true, especially when you think of a jealous God who demands all of your heart and love. But, I asked, how is that possible to do when you must truly fall in love with/give your heart to a person before you decide to spend your live with them? The answer to that is made clear to the woman whose heart already belongs and always remains with God. He is the sustainer of our life, so it makes sense that we would want our heart with Him and guarded from others. Can ol'boy or ol'girl be the wellspring or source of your life? Can they keep your heart perfectly satisfied while remaining patient enough to bear your weaknesses so that your life is made more complete?
The answer is no.

Think of some expectations you had of your significant other and how they met or fell short of that. Now ask yourself did they ever love you so perfectly that you felt free to give love to others (not just your boo)? When God has our hearts we have the strength we need to live life to its fullest. We love those who once made us feel miserable or intimidated or rejected. We even have joy that replaces the emotional rollercoaster of emotions we once attached to people.  Psalm 84:5-7 is an encouraging word for those who may have experienced a hurtful break-up and now desire to receive strength, joy, and companionship from the all-satisfying source of their life, Jesus :

Psalm 84:5-7

New Living Translation (NLT)

 ⁵ What joy for those whose strength comes from the LORD,
      who have set their minds on a pilgrimage to Jerusalem.
 ⁶ When they walk through the Valley of Weeping,^[a]
      it will become a place of refreshing springs.
      The autumn rains will clothe it with blessings.
 ⁷ They will continue to grow stronger,
      and each of them will appear before God in Jerusalem.^[b]

I pray you be filled to the brim with wisdom and love so that your heart may return back to its rightful owner and be restored!

Find strength Queen_________,

Love Queen Surrender  :)