Discontentment..really?!

I'm reminded today of why God means the world to me. I was having another one of those moments where I felt again, like that nagging feeling was becoming unbearable. I had so much on my mind: work, unmet goals, car troubles, sibling issues, and naturally my bodily ailments with the common cold..argh!! Boy, did I feel justified to crawl under the bed and cry. I hate that feeling! And though it's always been there since I left college and started so-called Life, I never experienced it like this before...probably because lately I've done away with the escapism of social media, media , boy toys, and  other activities that give me the allusion that all is ok in my life. 

Sidebar: Let's admit it ladies...when we doubt where we are in life and value affirmation of our own existence, don't we look at celebrities and our Facebook obsessively to see how liked our comments are or what in our closet can give us that "Olivia Pope" look?! I have wonderful friends who have been resharpened into God's thinking on beauty and image ( check their site here, http://exposedconference.com/ ) which is so needed in our lives right now.

 However, most of us "weak-willed" would never claim these things to be our issue...nooooooo, so we go back to thinking that we have to busy our lives to obtain value in our days. We can't rest, trust, or believe that our God is bigger than our circumstance, so we live out our days thinking on the future i.e future husband, next career move, or new life plans. The question I hear the Lord asking me time and time again whenever the nagging is unbearable and I MUST pray through it is...why daughter? why? 

I respond with what do you mean "Why" Lord? Today, he answered back and reminded me of his promise to me and I to him in Psalms 37:4:

English Standard Version
Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Ultimately, I realized that I'm not experiencing delight in any form by skipping to my desires. That's the reverse of what this scripture is telling us to do. At that moment, I deeply took that stance that never will skip over the now and His precious blood spilled for me TODAY and focus on my ever-changing desires. If I'm going to ever enjoy life as it it every morning I wake up, I must never forget to delight in the Lord and leave the plans for my life in His hands. Such a simple lesson, but I am speechless on how God can transform our minds toward his thinking so radically. 

Oh, and by the way, that "nagging" of mine turned out to be a divine calling from my Lord and Husband for greater intimacy that beckoned me to turn away from selfish pursuits and come to him:)

Ladies/sisters/fellow brides of Christ,

COME STRONG!

De'Ja